I am overwhelmed and awed.
I never imagined, well I did – but it was all imagination. I fantasized and dreamed. I am happy – thrilled. I am shocked and amazed.
I am scared.
It seems like such a long road, so far from where I was. Only I am aware that it is so much closer than anyone who has not done this could ever understand. Those habits do not quit. They do not go quietly into the night. You claw your way out from under this literally enormous weight and you fight and earn EACH and EVERY ounce. Then suddenly you get to solid ground, to that dry, warm place you have been waiting for and you find out that the land is not solid, it is ever shifting sand and you will have to find a way to balance and live life at the same time.
It is scary to be so overwhelmingly vulnerable, and more than that it is scary to so directly control your own destiny.
In 5.1 pounds I will have accomplished something so incredible I almost cannot comprehend it.
YEA!
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