Little FAT Me

I work full time and I barely have time to breathe. In 2005 hurricane Katrina rearranged my life, since then I have gained roughly 80-90 pounds. I believe that it started in depression and became an addiction. I have started and failed many diets and then decided that MAYBE if I combine diet and exercise with blogging and shopping I might be able to find success. This is the story of 2010 and my struggle to rise above addiction, pain, depression and fat.
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30. Mother. Wife. Artist. Psychic (sensitive.) Writer. Singer. Rain dancer. Lover. Daughter. Sister. Child of God.

The road to MY PERSONAL goal BMI/weight!

Sunday, March 28

I am feeling better about the fat fight.

I finally got my hands on watercolor pencils, nothing high quality but still. This was my test doodle. I am feeling pretty good. Like, I don't want to be a stick but a thin, funky artist would be nice...

Am I hungry?

I have no idea. Today I ate a two egg omelet with garden fresh salsa and a wee bit (a real wee bit - NOT a fat girl's wee bit, which we all know means 3/4th of the pack) of Mexican shredded cheese for breakfast. (BTW when I typed breakfast I accidentally typed breakfat, ha!) I had a breaded chicken breast sandwich for lunch. A small glass of milk with one scoop of ice cream for a snack. I had tortellini with vodka sauce for dinner. I have drank the hell out of water. Actually I ate the hell out of water because that's how I like it, as crushed ice. ANYWHO, I know that I shouldn't be, but I feel like I feel hungry. It might be emotional, missing the wee one and feeling bummed because I got fussed for listening to music too loud. It might be habit, because I am used to eating much more! What ever it is - I feel hungry! I don't think it's real, but I feel like the generic bag of Cinnamon Toast Crunch is screaming my name. :(

Friday, March 26

Overeaters Anonymous (OA) and me.

I guess after falling horribly from the wagon. Oh, fuck, there wasn't a wagon. There was a brief stint at pretending to have will power. Now, I just have to do something. I am still positive that the blog will be a big tool, however I am now going to be using several book and journals too. As far as joining OA it was like, "Look, Little FAT, either we have to take this eating thing to the next level and stick a finger down our throat five times a day OR we have to get this shit under control." Guess, you now know my plan B. :)
BTW - I gained my 7 pounds back and am again at starting weight (not totally) but still. The black fish at the bottom still rep the weight I want to drop and I am again ready to rumble! (Oh, wait, that might be my tummy!)

Sunday, March 14


I ate Mc Donald's at midnight.

I was trying for a different feeling...

I'm not sure about it. I know I will go back to my style, but I might play with this a bit also. You think?

You might have noticed:

I figured out how to mobile post. Yay!

Um, they're pot holders.

We have been weaving them all morning, and I feel I must test them. Perhaps I should bake? I mean, it is for the sake of safety. I would hate to put these in the kitchen and have some poor unsuspecting person use them ONLY to find out they don't work. Hold on sweet cookie mix, I'm on my way!

Saturday, March 13 Contest!