Little FAT Me

I work full time and I barely have time to breathe. In 2005 hurricane Katrina rearranged my life, since then I have gained roughly 80-90 pounds. I believe that it started in depression and became an addiction. I have started and failed many diets and then decided that MAYBE if I combine diet and exercise with blogging and shopping I might be able to find success. This is the story of 2010 and my struggle to rise above addiction, pain, depression and fat.
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30. Mother. Wife. Artist. Psychic (sensitive.) Writer. Singer. Rain dancer. Lover. Daughter. Sister. Child of God.

The road to MY PERSONAL goal BMI/weight!

Wednesday, November 30

November Challenge: Week "between months", # 2

I am not well. My nerves are shot and I am stressed out beyond belief. So of course my headaches are flaring and I feel like I all on a roller coaster each time I stand up. Today my left eye is blacking out. This is all why I MADE myself go to Zumba yesterday, when normally I would not have. I knew I had to get workouts in while I could.

Tuesday, November 29

November Challenge: Week "between months", # 1

I hooped for 15 minutes and then did hard core Zumba for ten. Cooled down for 25 minutes and then hooped for 15 minutes and “Zumba” for ten. I say “Zumba” because in reality I was (TMI WARNING) stripping and grinding my wife, still a work out – a fun one! Oh, in the spirit of TMI I guess I will mention that I feel like I am pretty good at the (self invented?) art of strip hooping! That’s right, in my bedroom – which is in no way big enough to hoop – I sexy hooped (grinded and got dirty, club dancing style all while hooping) and then was struck by the thought, “I can so get this shirt off and keep the hoop going!” I did, at first the banana didn’t even realize what was happening. Then the only logical though that could possibly follow, “I could SO get my bra off and keep this hoop going!” AND I DID!!!!

31 minutes; I sh*t you not!

I ran TWO 31 minute 5Ks – you can read about them under the workout challenge BUT now I have to push for longevity. SO that I can run the 10K in NO TIME! Woot, woot!

March 4, 2012

Race facts:
13 miles.
4 hours.

To finish.
To ENJOY it. (With the only goal being to finish I don’t have to push myself to go, go, go – I want to walk and enjoy the environment and people.)
To make a KILLER vlog!

One hour and 26 minutes.

That was last years Crescent City Classic time. I want to beat it by at least 10 minutes. I am thinking about making that by 20 minute, but I strive for reality and I am not sure that is realistic!

Our 5 Minute Move sessions.

It’s hard, you know, to have your kids move and play. The world it WAY harsh and you you can’t just let little girls go off and play. Anything could happen. Also, I am lucky to home school. When your kids are in school, like mine were, there is hardly time for anything and school doesn’t have them actually play. I used to drop my kids to before care at 7:30 in the morning and pick them up at 5:30 in the evening. We got home at 6:00 and had to complete assignments, study, bath, have dinner (which needed to be prepared.) If you get them to be even at 9pm where is the time to “play” for 60 minutes? It isn’t there.
Well, I started doing this really fun thing for myself way back when I worked (WAY back – lol!) I have Fibromyalgia and it cause my body to ache when I move, this is worse if I am not mobile very often. So after 4 hours at my desk walking felt like hell. I started doing a Zumba dance once and hour. It really helped. Now that I home school I set the timer for 55 minutes, when it goes off I set it for 5 and we spend that time alternating stretches, cardio, movement and just plain silliness. To make sure everyone is back to “serious school behavior” afterward the kids are told they will miss our next 5 Minute Move if they don’t behave! They love it so much they snap back, even better they are awake, alert and full of life!
We spend 6-7 hours a day with school, so that ads up to 30-35 minutes. Plus, we have a 20 minute recess after lunch (outside if available) and a 15-20 minute play time after school if it’s not too late.
It’s a really good feeling, and I feel like it’s just the beginning. With my oldest now riding a bike, we will have even more healthy, happy MOVE time!

Monday, November 28

Sunday, November 27

Saturday, November 26

Weight Watchers Weigh In (Wk 79)

So, because I had to work I didn’t get to weigh in. I can’t go every Thursday. I don’t know what I am gonna do. I think at home weigh ins are going to be official now – EVERY Saturday – and I will of course update you dudettes when I do weigh in with at work. Work – he he he – that’s funny.
Oh – would be nice to update. I weighed in today at 136.0 – I like it!

First day.

I worked my first meeting as a receptionist. It was so light, most people didn’t want to come two days after Thanksgiving. All went well, pretty much.

November Challenge: Week 4; # 3

Girl – get the hell out! I am whipped. I love it. Today I scooted over to Zumba – weight lifting. I was late, but who the hell cares? Then I caught a full class after the workout. I was DRENCHED and that means it was a good day.

Sh*t I didn't eat ~ THANKSGIVING!

Sorry so late, but hey - it's here. All of these things LOOK and smelled amazing - it was rough. The brownie balls was the worst! I did it though, and I was like 1.8 lighter the next day! Woot, woot!

Friday, November 25

Wednesday, November 23

November Challenge: Week 4; # 2

Nov 23 – my birthday. I took the kids out to play and managed to get in 30-40 good minutes of hooping, then they did Zumba with me for 20 minutes. Once they lost interest I picked the hoop back up and started to Zumba-hoop. Strange, awkward and hilarious – SO MUCH FUN! Later, because my wife is awesome I got a solo visit to the gym in and I made sweet exercise love to the elliptical!

Monday, November 21

November Challenge: Week 4; # 1

Thank God! I got to a Zumba class and burned a bit of calories. I was SO needing a good dance off. Zumba makes me run better, I take the songs I really love and really have to push through and put them on my running play list. Then when I hit that wall of I CAN’T a good hardcore song comes on and I do!

Did you say before and after?

I'm 5'3" and these pictures take you from 255 pounds to 145 (110 pound loss.) I lost another 9 pounds, but have yet to take new pictures! lol2009.2010.2010.The pictures on top are of me at 255 - the lower level close up with glasses was taken last week at 135 pounds, the upper body shot was taken MONTHS ago at 155 pounds.

November Challenge: Week 3; # 3

Sunday I went back to the park, my legs aching in their sockets. I stretched and thought, “It’s okay if I can’t match my time.” Then I set the stopwatch and got going – 3.2 miles later – 31:54.5 minutes later. Not a fluke, not a rare undo-able thing. I am gonna kill this years CCC 10K!

Sunday, November 20

Saturday, November 19

How to lose 1 pound

"Focus, focus, focus."

How I did it: I mean, I've lost 119 pounds, but I lost focus. I just want to get back to my lowest so that I can remain satisfied with my journey. I want to eat well and that is how I did it! I ate really good, clean and natural foods! I feel better than I have in months and plan to stay on this course!

It took me 14 days.

It made me Happy!

Weekly Meeting (Wk 78) Holiday eating tips video!

Somewhere my weeks got effed – it might very well me 79. Grrr. ANYWHO, I weighed in an officially was at 137.8 – I lost my pound I was gunning for. Actually I lost 1.4. Fun stuff!

Friday, November 18

November Challenge: Week 3; # 2

OMG! I got to go an run – RUN – outdoors, in the evening, in the cold. I got to RUN until I was warm, hot! I got to run until I couldn’t and then I ran even further. I got to RUN and RUN and pray and cry and hurt and RUN. It was beautiful. My lovely wife got home in time for me to get to the park and it was alive with kids and people and so amazingly fun to RUN around. I want a puppy. I want a dog to run with!
I got 3.2 miles done in 30 minutes – which means that it’s possible I can keep working on it and set my Crescent City Classic 10K goal as an hour!

I am jonesing.

Monday. Monday was the last time I got a good REAL work out. Sure I have hooped here and there, but hooping alone isn’t what I crave. Lately I crave the run, even though I am less than stellar. I feel like I am chasing her (THE run) and that I will catch her if I keep going. Like and addict KNOWING they can get higher. lol
I know I am hitting the gym tonight, which kinda sucks because Zumba in the club is happening… Honestly I would rather an afternoon at the park to just go. I kinda fell in love with running outside. My love has been out of town this week so getting a good kid-free workout has not happened! Blah.

Thursday, November 17

November test # 2:

Wii age: 41
Wii weight: 139.7
Wii BMI: 24.8
Wii weight change since last visit: -3.3
Wii goal set: 15 pounds in the next 6 months
Left to meet Wii goal: 11.7

Uh, so me and that stoopid Wii board that talks you through everything are gonna fight it out. Here’s the deal, as part of my test today I had to walk in place, which I admit I kinda suck at. I find that even if I am in-placing-it in my mind I am creeping towards the end of the board. So I tried real hard to stay in place, but then it wouldn’t register my right foot movement unless I STOMPED – like elephant stomp. So at the end it was all WHOA LittleFAT you WAY over walk on your right foot – bomp – you are old… I am so frustrated!

Wednesday, November 16


My word count is so small, really like in the less than 10,000 range – BUT I have been writing some solid poetry and I am glad for that!

Tuesday, November 15

Still here.

I actually unofficially weighed in at 138.6 – if that sticks I would need to lose another .4 for a pound. Here’s putting up the good fight!

Monday, November 14

November Challenge: Week 3; # 1

Went to the gym with the brilliant idea that I might RUN – and had to kill the run due to my knee. So I got a mile done and I jumped on the elliptical to get a good sweat on – aweseome!

Not this week!

I did a crap job at getting to my meeting on time and didn’t get to weigh in – Sunday I did an unofficial and was up 1.6! What the… Today I weighed in at 139.2, so once again the goal for this goal is 138.2! Okay, now that that is clear let’s get it done!!! Holla!

November Challenge: Week 2, # 3

Saturday – Two mile run and two hoop sessions. Awesome!

Sunday, November 13

Saturday, November 12

Wednesday, November 9

November Challenge: Week 2; # 2

Yesterday I hooped for over 45 minutes, but I’m not calling it. What? That’s right little fat me is at a place where I don’t need to scrounge for my workouts! I can be picky!!! Who flippin’ saw that one coming?
Today I started my hooping for 10 minutes several times a day. I hopped for 20 minutes in 10 minute sets an hour apart, I am planning on doing two more. I went to the gym and ran a 8 minute mile and then did 25 minutes on the elliptical. Also, I played. I went to the park and I played with my kids all over the gymset. Briefly I was worried over my size, but then I realized that these things are made for multiple kids to play on and I weight less than four average six year olds! SHUT UP.

Monday, November 7

November Challenge: Week 2; # 1

Well, I bought a weighted hula hoop the other day and I have been swinging that thing on an off through the day. It was fun and I could feel it a bit, THEN I took myself to Zumba and I can FEEL IT!! My abs were on fire from the start due to the hopping ALL DAY!!!

Saturday, 5 Nov 11

I weighed in at 139.2 – so for next week I would like to have the whole pound gone, but will take what I can get!

I love it!

My first receptionist training was last Tuesday and it was AWESOME! I loved being so much a part of it! I was def bitten my the bug and I want to be a leader HARD CORE!

Weekly Meeting (Wk 77)

Official: 139.2 (Which means for four weeks in a row I have been RIGHT on the money.)

I am picking back up with my weigh ins, love it! I just missed the mental reset that stepping on the mother ship of scales gives me.

November Challenge: Week 1; # 2 & 3

Friday I went to the gym and pounded out a mile and a teeny less than half. My knee and shin killed, but I was like, “Bitch please – this is happening!!!!” Then I hopped on the elliptical and shredded another couple hundred calories to make myself feel like a monster! lol
Saturday I took a Zumba weight training class and I love that thing. I am still sore, though remarkably less! Immediately after, like NO COOL DOWN NO BREAK, we went into dancing our asses off! It’s been so awesome to be completely over the fibro flare. Thank GOD!

Thursday, November 3

Forget what they say about Prada.

The devil wears white chocolate. Did you also know that the bitch is made of the finest ice cream, sweet, delicate and so willing to melt in your mouth. Can you tell that my devil is a sexually desirable snack food. God I just hope she is a lesbian, the only think worse that seeing her calorie content would be finding out she's straight and I am going to spend my life in a sick longing. I can't compare it to anything in my life, all my major crushes (famous and "real" life) are either lesbians, bi or easy - so theoretically I'm in.
Anyway, today I started my scientifically sanctioned bitch week today - so, even though I am NOT a choco-whore I was dying. I bought a white chocolate Magnum ice cream bar thing. Excuse me while I orally orgasm once again! O-fuck-yes-yes-yes-thank-you-yes, that thing was the singular most sexy and full filling ice cream sex I have ever had. Maybe it's because I don't get around too much, but whatever -I am in love.

(Caloric-ly this sweet girl will hit you up at 250; WW points 7. You wont count or care as you lose yourself in her amazing body!)

Wednesday, November 2

November Challenge: Week 1; # 1

Zumba. It’s been since Saturday and it kicked my ass. I loved it! I miss going all the time, have to get my shit in order and make it a priority. I almost had a mini stroke thinking I only had three days to get three REAL work outs in, then I remembered that I got that new week start and end – I actually had FIVE days to do 3! I say real because I actually have gotten a lot of extra movement, like taking the kids trick or treating…

Tuesday's Gourmet: 1 November 11

Crescent City Classic 2012 - this years goals:

I am not too sure what my goals are this year. You can read about my first time here:
It’s a MUCH more serious event for me than the Rock n’ Roll half marathon where all I want is to have fun. I guess that I need to hit the gym and pound out a 5K no matter what my knee says. I haven’t run more than a mile in a month due to my knee. Thing is i have to bite the bullet, I miss the run.
So this week I run a 5K, easy but serious, and then I formulate a plan.

The goals:

1 – Finish the course.
2 – Have fun. (This isn’t about pushing so hard I am dead and hurt. It’s about the adventure, the challenge, the band and refreshment and FUN. I want to have an awesome day and a killer vlog at the end of it. I want to take the time to ENJOY it.)
3 – Time: done in 3.5 hours.
4 – Have FUN!

2 Nov 11

My migraines have been hitting IN MY SLEEP, between 3-6 in the morning I wake up in such pain. Full on aura attack.
My dreams have been of sleeping on rocks, having a head injury, enduring ghastly pain – then I wake up and I realize that it’s my head in blinding pain!

November Challenge: A slight change to the way I do things.

Things always evolve and I am about to let that happen with my workout challenges. Up to this point I have fooled with the number of workouts, but I think I need to start my week on Monday and end it on Sunday. There is so much going on early in the week and when I get stuck on Wednesday needing three workouts it means back to back for three days and that is too much for my migraines and fibro to deal with for the most part.

November test # 1:

Wii age: 30
Wii weight: 143
Wii BMI: 25.35
Wii weight change since last visit: -92.2 (it was a long time ago.)
Wii goal set: 15 pounds in the next 6 months

Hula-flippin'-hoop - SUCKA!

I your face – you Sonyas that thought we couldn’t hula, that we had lost our touch. IN YOFACES!!!! Snap and crackle AND CRACKLE.
Okay, I had to own the negative bitches that live in the psychiatric ward of my mind. (I’ll draw it for you one day.)
25 minutes of hula and run goodness. Hula was hard because it works all different due to me not being 255 pounds. It was hard to jog because they want you to go slow, but my Mii only responds when I haul ass. Ah, the downfall of virtual workouts!

WTF is this challenge? (You may ask.)

Well, I will tell you my pretty!
Like a ga-billion years ago when we got our Wii (haha, we got our Wii, ha – oh, alright, my gosh, get over yourself) I took the Wii Fit personal test and I was like 76 – for real. I couldn’t even do the short jog with out dying. I did surprise myself with my ability to hula-hoop, though even that left me gasping and cramping. I left the Wii for my DSI-saturated-fat-and-blubber phase.
Then, a little less than a year and a half ago – when I was tiger blood winning on Weight Watchers – I took it again and for out that I was 65 Wii years old. You can imagine my complete elation, I could have floated if not for the over plumped body I was rocking. I squealed like a piglet at slop time. Don’t pretend you don’t know the noise we all make at a buffet.
Then tonight, as I (TMI) self pleasured so that I could keep my goal of an orgasm a day during my birthday month moving forward I thought, with dramatic flare befitting one such as myself, “WHY NOT SET UP A WII FITNESS CHALLENGE THAT WILL SPAN THE ENTIRE LENGTH OF YOUR 31st YEAR?” Wherein I do the fitness test on the 1st and the 15th (loosely dated) and I work on the training on days I don’t take to the gym or ZUMBA for my life!
Thus, this goal was born!

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