Little FAT Me

I work full time and I barely have time to breathe. In 2005 hurricane Katrina rearranged my life, since then I have gained roughly 80-90 pounds. I believe that it started in depression and became an addiction. I have started and failed many diets and then decided that MAYBE if I combine diet and exercise with blogging and shopping I might be able to find success. This is the story of 2010 and my struggle to rise above addiction, pain, depression and fat.
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30. Mother. Wife. Artist. Psychic (sensitive.) Writer. Singer. Rain dancer. Lover. Daughter. Sister. Child of God.

The road to MY PERSONAL goal BMI/weight!

Sunday, July 31


We are in New Orleans – so the other day I was like, “What about Gumbo and call him Bo?” The wife agreed.
Then yesterday I found out that our local shelter has a full blooded standard poodle named GUMBO for adoption. What?!
:( I want him.

August Challenge: Week 1, # 2

I hit the elliptical full force. The two weeks of weakness have left me unable to really kill it. I have about 45 minutes in me and then I go flat, but I will be back full force by next week! Ye-haw!

August Challenge: Week 1, # 1

Gym. Elliptical. 45 minutes. 607 calories. Sweat. Pain. Near fainting. I am proud and excited to hit it again!

About The Augist challenge.

Okay, I have given this a lot of thought. You guys know I’m crazy Ans I over think EVERYTHING. So I came up with – I worn down due to health and, while I do have to keep moving I have to find balance and not burn out, so I am building in a workout routine that have take it easy built in.
August’s challenge goes like this: week 1 – 6 workouts, week 2 – 3 workouts, week 3 – 4 workouts and finally week 4 – 3 workouts. More is fine, less is not am option!
Week one: Sat. gym, Sun. gym, Mon. Zumba, Tues. gym, Wed. Zumba, Thursday off – Fri. gym. Bam!

July Challenge: Week 4; # 3

Zumba and I may very well be done this week. :)

Saturday, July 30

Wednesday, July 27

Sunday, July 24

July Challenge: Week 4, # 1

Yesterday – Zumba. We had the Zumba party today. It was fun, I took it easy. I was enraged when I was late, but then I moved pass that. I had a really good time. I always feel strange around groups of people. I can’t hear well, like at all, so it makes social situations strange. I think sometimes people think I’m rude because I miss a hello or don’t respond, but it is nerve shredding when you don’t know what someone said or of they spoke to you or not.
I guess, as I’m flipping 30 now, I’m getting better at it.

Saturday, July 23

Weekly Meeting (Wk 62)

I maintained the loss. Thank You GOD! I even shaved a bit off!

Saturday, July 16

Weekly Meeting (Wk 61)

Down. Down BIG! -6.8 for a total loss of 116.7 – thank You God! I am so excited.


Well, after a month of playing the seesaw game with a few pounds I undoubtedly see'ed or is it saw'ed? I kicked the hell out of those pounds and smacked right into the 130's! I now weigh, wait for it, 138.4! Wow, that's all I can think!

The road to being at my WEIGHT WATCHERS goal weight:

Thursday, July 14

Wednesday, July 13

July Challenge: Week 2, # 5

I went to the gym and I elliptical-ed for 20 minutes at an easy pace, ten minutes at a soft baby spin. I sat and stretched my arms, allowed my head to stop spinning and made it home with just enough umf to get to the sofa. Good day.

Tuesday, July 12

Banono Icecream - Uh, hells yeah!

Simple and easy let's go! Thing to remember is that you can change this up. I use 2-4 ounces of almond milk, and two packets of Splenda in this one. Usually I add a splash of vanilla extract, and for added fun a tea spoon of Slenda brown sugar and a wee touch of cinnamon! It's all about the texture so add the milk in slowly!

I use really ripe banonos because, well if they are too mushy to eat it won't matter. Also, any bruised or damaged ones are goo for this. I usually put them in a gallon size freezer bag, but I was out today and they are little bananas!

Peel them all, doesn't matter if they break - that is the next step. Remove all stringy stuff!

Break into ice cube size pieces, to make it easier on your food processor.

Bag, get a good seal and squeeze out as much air as possible, just don't go to nuts and mush the banonos together. It's important to be able to get only a few later!

Toss in the freezer and let them get throughly frozen.

Place desired amount in food processor. I do one banana at a time so I can track it easily. If you do this you need to make sure you put the rest of the bananas back in the freezer between batches, you really want them FROZEN, not thawed at all.

Get them good and broken up, small chunks - like small blue cheese crumble size!

I used two Splenda packets. I sprinkle them over the whole banana.

Now, give it a few spins.

I start with adding two ounces of almond milk, if I must I add more. the keey is to watch out, too much will make it wet. (Still yummy!)

After you learn just the right amount of milk, you will be able to get this creamy, airy and delish soft serve consistency!


This class lit a fire under yours truly, a fire of heat and flame! I have this dream of traveling and touching people's lives with Zumba! I am on love!

July Challenge: Week 2, # 4

Today Zumba sucked because the instructor sucked. She just doesn’t have the umpf. If I feel okay be tomorrow afternoon, which is when things start to clear up for me, I am going to try to hit the gym for 20-40 minutes!

Monday, July 11

July Challenge: Week 2, # 3

Zumba! Maybe it wasn’t perfect, but I was there and I was happy to see friends. I went and that counts!

Thanks, memorycaro!

Sunday, July 10

Weekly Meeting (Wk 60)

Okay – I am up 1.4! What?
Breathe – fine.
Only, I need this to be free. I have been sick and I am not getting paid for the time I am home and I am worried. I need this to stop costing so much! So my leader suggested I change my “official” goal to 146 and be done. As long as I stay under that. So I have six weeks left. I should only have to pay once more. So the cost of this journey to change my life will be – 559.86! That doesn’t count the gym or Zumba, but I was doing well without those things. Oh, I would include the cost of my stationary bike, so 350.00 – still less that a grand! Not bad!
(Of course it also doesn’t include the cost of new clothes! lol)

July Challenge: Week 2, # 2

Today I took myself to the gym, I was hoping to get a good burn (good considering) and I felt both sick and dizzy by the time I got up the stairs. I still pushed through 20 minutes on the elliptical, but I was doing an hour just a week or two ago. I finished out with another go, so that my 30 minute goal could be complete. I am looking forward to Zumba tomorrow, the ladies know I am not feeling well and they have been so nice. I used to be such a rock star in class. Last week I didn’t go once! This week, I will go, but that don’t mean much.

Saturday, July 9

July Challenge: Week 2, # 1

It was a subs class, so gentle and easy – still, I felt like shit afterwards. Ewwww. Headache, dizzy.
Thing is at least my body moved, it’s worse when I feel that way and my body has not even moved!

Wednesday, July 6

July Challenge: Week 1, # 4

Today was a sad day. I could get nothing real going. Pain and weakness and headache. It was all more than I could contend with and after struggling for forty minutes I gave up. It isn’t to say I didn’t try and I did still burn some calories. I just, in the end, had come home.

July Challenge: Week 1, # 3

Tuesday I went to the gym. I have not really been feeling well. I have been unable to drive myself to work and if I was there I would be unable to work as my vision comes and goes. Also, I feel faint and sick suddenly and have to lay down. Due to this I only “work out” at the gym or Zumba. These are places where I can push or relax as I see fit and where people are everywhere in case I do go down.
It’s sad as I really mis Pia (my bike) but it’s much to dangerous to ride her as blacking out could cause great injury. :(
So on Tuesday I ran a mile and a half and then felt so ill I sat for a while before doing an easy 20 minutes on the elliptical. It took over an hour to feel some what “normal” again and about three to six before the blur to my sight was gone. :( They say keep moving and I must, I know that allowing myself to fold under this will only cause me greater strain, but it’s hard right now.

July Challenge: Week 1, # 2

Belgain Zumba! It was so awesome I squee! I loved it – master class last Saturday! Yay!

Monday, July 4

Saturday, July 2

Weekly Meeting (Wk 58 & 59)

Okay, see since the app for 43Things has been broken I suck at getting this updated and I don’t want to suck at that because I love 43Things!
Wk 58 – up 1.6 – that was scary because I started eating more and I changed my plan. I knew I didn’t eat enough to actually gain, but I got scared that I screwed up my metabolism or some shit.
Wk 59 – down 2.6 – whew, thank God! I am so glad to see I didn’t eff with my ability to burn off fat. I am soooo relieved to know I can eat a bit more and still lose, because honestly it had gotten a twee bit ridic over the last few weeks. Around 105 pounds I noticed that I needed more than I was giving myself, maybe because my once massive reserves are dang near gone? Anyletsalleatbutteredbreadway, I was struggling with knowing I needed to eat more, but also not wanting to gain – which is a fear I suspect I will have for a while now…
I feel like with this loss I am a step closer to a healthier relationship with food and I am thankful for that!

July Challenge: Week 1, # 1

Today I whipped it at the gym, only it also whipped me. A delicate balance, I guess. One that I have yet to master, which is so strange. It’s like every time is different. I went, I moved, I burned calories. Now I am exhausted and I feel empty. Also, my skin hurts to be touched – like even by my shirt.

Friday, July 1

Week 5; # 4

Wednesday? 1 hour on elliptical. I know they say to keep moving, but I am feeling worse and worse… Contest!