Little FAT Me

I work full time and I barely have time to breathe. In 2005 hurricane Katrina rearranged my life, since then I have gained roughly 80-90 pounds. I believe that it started in depression and became an addiction. I have started and failed many diets and then decided that MAYBE if I combine diet and exercise with blogging and shopping I might be able to find success. This is the story of 2010 and my struggle to rise above addiction, pain, depression and fat.
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30. Mother. Wife. Artist. Psychic (sensitive.) Writer. Singer. Rain dancer. Lover. Daughter. Sister. Child of God.

The road to MY PERSONAL goal BMI/weight!

Tuesday, June 22

Out with the old.

So much of losing weight is old habit, old addiction, old pain. Left alone to fester, to hurt more because it was not dealt with. So much of me is defined by never letting go. I think I could easily become a hoarder. A few years ago a long time friend had a pair of sun glasses that I adored. I set out to find something similar and I did. After much daily wear they broke. :( I kept them, afraid of losing the memory of her if I tossed them. That's dumb and it's that type of thought that makes it impossible to move forward. So, while out on my maxi dress hunt I came across new glasses and I am throwing out my old one. Deep breath.
I toss these broken glasses like I toss out the broken me. No more holding in, or on. No more hiding my addictions for fear of abandonment. I am loved and I will be loved. The people who love me want me healthy and are there for me what I am weak.

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